I know i have to let go but no one said it’ll be easy. I’m trying to keep busy to try to keep my mind off of things but there are still moments where i find myself thinking of her and it saddens my heart to know that we can’t be together. Here i go again, going through the same shit again.
I really need this next month to reflect and to really figure out what i want.
For the next month i will be disconnected from the world. My phones turned off and i will force myself to stay off of all social networking sites. The reason… i need to recollect myself. My heart is so full of ache that its almost unbearable. Sometimes i feel like being a “good” guy just means that it’s that much easier for people to step on you. I try my hardest to find the good in people and i hope that they can change and be that good person that i see. It’s not that I'm stupid and don’t see what's happening it’s just that i believe in people to much. I admit i do get attached way to easily but it’s genuine and i do really care about these girls. I always seem to find these broken people and i get pulled in. I feel their pain and i want to try my hardest to help them through the rough time but in the end I'm always the one sitting by myself in my room with a pain in my chest and a tear in my eye. All i ever wanted was to be able to love someone and feel loved in return. For now i just need to take a breathe and try to find peace. My heart has been broken so many times I'm so sick of this shit. FUCK!
